Marriage and Humility

WE GIVE GOD ALL THE PRAISE, HONOR, AND GLORY IN JESUS’ NAME

 I WANT TO SPEAK ABOUT HUMILITY IN MARRIAGE.
FOR 4 YEARS OF MY MARRIAGE, I WAS ANGRY AND GAVE IN TO MY ANGER AND BITTERNESS. I NEVER HAD A NICE WORD TO SAY TO HIM. I WAS ALWAYS READY FOR A FIGHT. I WOULD LEAVE FOR WORK IN THE MORNING AND SEE HIM HELPING ANOTHER WOMAN; TO REMOVE SNOW FROM HER CAR, BUT NOT MY CAR. MY ANGER WOULD RISE UP AND I WOULD NURSE IT ALL DAY LONG. I WAS VERY MISERABLE AT WORK. I WOULD COME HOME FROM WORK AND HE WOULD BE HAVING HIS DINNER THAT HE MADE FOR ONLY HIMSELF.
THE ANGER WOULD RISE UP AGAIN AND I WOULD THROW THINGS AROUND AND REFUSE TO TALK TO HIM. AT THE END OF THE DAY WHEN I WENT TO BED, I KNEW MY BEHAVIOUR WAS BAD AND THE BITTERNESS WAS DESTROYING MY PEACE. I COULD NOT PRAY AS
I AUGHT TO AND THIS WAS NOT ME BUT I FELT SORRY FOR MYSELF AND REFUSED TO BACK OFF.
AFTER 4 YEARS OF FIGHTING, PHYSICAL ABUSE, LIES, AND EXTREME BITTERNESS, I FILED FOR A DIVORCE AND RAN AWAY TO BC.
I ALWAYS WONDERED HOW I COULD HAVE BEEN A BETTER WIFE. AS I SPENT TIME IN GOD’S PRESENCE, I LEARNED 3 THINGS:
1. THERE WAS ALWAYS AN I, ME, MINE, MYSELF, AND I HAD STEPPED OUT OF GOD’S PROVISION,

KINGDOM, AND PRESENCE.  I WAS WALKING WITH THE DEVIL AND DID NOT KNOW IT. I WAS HAPPY TO RUN AWAY
2. MY FIGHT IS WITH THE ENEMY NOT MY SPOUSE OR GOD BECAUSE WHEN I FIGHT WITH MY SPOUSE REALLY, I WAS FIGHTING WITH GOD. I AM NO GOOD TO ANYONE IF I AM NO GOOD FOR GOD.
3. I NEEDED TO JUDGE MYSELF ACCORDING TO GOD’S STANDARD WHICH IS THE BIBLE. I STARTED LOOKING AT EXAMPLES IN THE BIBLE AND REALIZED I HAD MUCH TO LEARN ABOUT HUMILITY